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"We go on in life always busy looking out and yet failing to look in. When we spend time with ourselves with our thoughts and energy, we dig deep, we recognize where our heart truly goes."
I couldn't count the times that I've attempted to find my purpose through travels and every
time I've come home to one, I would bring home the usual: a few souvenirs, a number of really cool stories, and hundreds of pictures. And also as usual, I come home with no clear conviction of the purpose. The whole trip although it was fun, didn't really give me the answer which I was seeking for in the first place. Why?
Why it Failed.
And by being in different place made stillness and introspection for long hours of time seem impractical. I mean, there I was in Baguio or HK, places I have never been to. Every time I steady myself and start to meditate, there's a nagging thought that yells at me saying that "there's just so much to explore in this place, what the hell are you doing?" or the "you spent all money and time for that? might as well do that in your own room." And dawning on the fact, I get anxious and go back to my places-to-go list.
So there, I learned it that way, but I must say that each experience is different. My soul searching just happened to flop when traveling because really come to think of it the answer really lies within us. We go on in life always busy looking out and yet failing to look in. When we spend time with ourselves with our thoughts and energy, we dig deep, we recognize where our heart truly goes.
I learned that our aspirations and dreams are shadows of the needs and wants that we want in life. There are shallow needs, the ones that we really don't need but we have come to want for the ego. And there are deeper needs of love, belonging, fulfillment which we get by pursuing that of which our spirit truly desires. It's up for us to recognize where our dreams fall under, and to make sure that we always go for the ones that fall under the latter.