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Tuesday, August 12, 2014

I'm Lusting all Over Again.

"It's amazing how some things started out weird and ended up being beautiful."  

So I haven't been posting for awhile.  Some writer's block is happening.  But really I'm just stopping myself from sharing something I'm going through these past few months.    It has been the frog in my throat, the snot to my nose, for the lack of the better term.  You see, it isn't a bad thing.  No close to snot nor frog, it's beautiful.  I'll share it once I'm already ready to do so.

This morning I wake myself with barrels of poetic statements in my mind. Excerpts from stories and moments worth writing.  The idea is there, but the pain is constructing the whole thing from start to end, breathing life to it through words just so you can finally fit in that single line that started it all.  It demands to be written down in words, else it disappears and you end up having nothing on your creative plate again.

At this moment, that plate is empty.  It probably took me awhile to force myself out of bed and exhausted that feeling demanded by the image in sudden bursts of laughter or momentary contemplation, or even gush of disgust. The streak of day dreaming has already left me and I'm now facing the laptop, empty in mind yet full in heart.  For whatever reason, I managed to write some words and a sudden realization of gratefulness came into me, that for me made more sense on contemplating on instead of the weird streak of made-up imagery that left me psychotic for a few minutes.

For days I've allowed myself to be anxious and overwhelmed on something that was meant to be fun and exciting.  Somehow I had to find a way to manage my emotion and keep myself centered again, and what better way to start it by opening up with a grateful heart.

Indeed I am blessed and for that I'm grateful.

I am grateful for the shelter, the food in the ref, and the one that's still in my tummy - a result of last night's habhab, the loved ones who want only but happiness for me, this fresh air in the morning and the bright sun in the afternoon, the quietness in the evening that makes me at peace and still, the future and what I can create with it by just deciding today, the flexibility and freedom of my job, the lack of responsibility.

Surely this life of a single woman working as a freelancer isn't bad.  

I just have to make the most of it.

A couple of hours later, here I am once again, planning for a solo trip down the southern part of Luzon for a week? 2 weeks? Who knows.

Or perhaps weekend travels to random provinces... Excited much!

It's amazing how some things started out weird and ended up being beautiful ---Oh just one of the ironies of life.
Publisher: Shy - Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Friday, June 13, 2014


This Could be one of my Most Brilliant Arguments Hands Down!

"Of course that didn't work out, but hey, at least the moment was one for the books."

Here's what I think is brilliant.  This isn't absolutely original. I've heard a similar joke of it from this amazing stand up comedian, Russell Peters, and it had just stayed to me until it revealed itself quite useful right at the moment when I needed it.

Situation: I sleep at the top bed, while younger bro sleeps at the bottom bed.
Problem: I wanted to switch beds with him.  There's a gleam of possibility that he'll allow me to.

Me: Hey can we switch beds?
Bro: No.

So out of desperation and a bit of inspiration from Russell Peters I finally argued:

Me: They say that mature people aren't afraid of change.  Be mature.  Choose change.


Of course that didn't work out, but hey, at least the moment was one for the books.
Publisher: Shy - Friday, June 13, 2014

Thursday, June 12, 2014


3 Shocking Philosophical Truths that I've Discovered.

"You are not your thoughts but you are the stillness, the space that listens to the thoughts and the one who decides in the end." 

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1.  You are not your past and future but you are now.  You are not your thoughts but you are the stillness, the space that listens to the thoughts and the one who decides in the end.  That's me channeling Eckhart Tolle, a revolutionary author of the best selling books "The Power of Now" and "The New Earth".  He talks about our true self and ego and a lot of things that we don't usually think about much, and how all that we believe to be about us is somehow wrong.  It's screeching break from what we are programmed to think.  Read more about his books and you'll understand what I'm talking about.

2.  You are not the entirety of your decisions.  It was just something that occurred right to you at the moment.  So when you failed at something, it is not you to be blamed but your decision your decision making skills.  And it may suck initially but it will get better in time.

3.  The ego is a mask to put on so you can make yourself better than others.  Refer to the "New Earth", there's really a lot of enlightening ideas in there that could potentially open up a different level of consciousness.

And it's obvious by now that I've just sank my fingers in Eckhart's pie for too long... that doesn't sound good, but hopefully my point gets through to you somehow.
Publisher: Shy - Thursday, June 12, 2014

Why Giving up my Beilef of the Future is the Best Advice so Far.

"reassuring myself that the universe would somehow bring me to it; that it will cradle me into its arms ... and all I just had to do now is sit back enjoy and relax, do little things that I enjoy."

"Give up your belief in the future."  

I've read that line a few days back and I it threw me off the wall.  For years now I've always had this vision of me, the future, and I've always nestled on the wonderful feeling of being in it.  How I looked and how I dressed like and much importantly how I felt in that moment.  That image of me had visited me every now and then and it never fails to give me the same jitters.  And that line that I just read, made me feel that all of it was stolen from me.  It hurts.

That was probably a good wake up call I needed to pick myself up and actually work my way to get there as opposed to reassuring myself that the universe would somehow bring me to it; that it will cradle me into its arms and drop me off in that moment, and all I just had to do now is sit back enjoy and relax, do little things that I enjoy.

Man was I disillusioned.

Has anyone of you had this magic wooshoo going on in your head?  How were you able to snap out of it?

I'd love to know your story. :)  
Publisher: Shy - Thursday, June 12, 2014

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

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20 Ways You Can Be The Best Friend Ever.

1.  Send freaky and naughty text messages.  They might need it.  They might be bored.  You'll just give them a dose of adrenalin to wake them up, either way you're doing them a whole lot of good.  Trust me I do it all the time.

2.  Tell your friend how beautiful they are everyday.  Mean it or you don't, truth be told that it's always fantastic to be a recipient of that compliment.  And hey, I'm sure they'll throw a compliment back at you too. 

3. Push them to do crazy things with you.  I've got tons of friends who are "conservative" and timid when it comes to having fun.  I accept them for being so, but seriously they do need that someone who would give them that extra push to just let loose and let go.  

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Publisher: Shy - Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Friday, May 9, 2014

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I think this is One Sign I am getting Older

Night time at Bora, what could an introvert like me could do but to just walk the 3 kilometers stretch of white sand.  I don't know what I was thinking, now that I'm thinking about it, but at that time it made a lot of sense to do so, and that it was a perfect way to "check out" the night life in bora.  My "check out" plan was just me walking from station 3 to 1.  Even after passing by 3 or 4 party scenes, the last party was the only one I walked into.  One because it doesn't seem to require me paying any entrance fees, although I think that all parties there don't ask you to pay for anything except for drinks or snacks... I guess.  And 2, it was the last party destination as I am nearing the opposite end, so if I don't get into this, then I won't get to experience the party scene in Bora.

Publisher: Shy - Friday, May 09, 2014

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

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Saved by an Unsung Hero

It was almost 8 in the morning, as I headed out of the hotel gate with the back beach being my destination in mind.  After few questions from the receptionists and the guard, I hopped on the motorcycle and took a ride towards Tambisaan beach.  

When I got there, I was pleased to see that there was no one around except for some maintenance staff raking off some woods, and roots, and anything that makes the beach look "dirty".   I immediately spread my mat and positioned myself near this surfboard with 20-something coconut fruits laying neatly on it.

Publisher: Shy - Wednesday, May 07, 2014
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Walk Along the Shore with Me.

 I love mornings.  

The breeze is cool and fresh; people are friendlier,and happier; it's just a perfect environment to wake up to. So on the 2nd day, I figured to just walk around the beach and be in awe of the beauty of it.

I woke up to my alarm clock as it buzzed at 5:30am and started my journey.  A 10 minute-walk from hotel to shore, took me 15 minutes.  I just had to stop every now and then and take photos to solidify and immortalize what I saw so I can share them with you all.

Publisher: Shy - Wednesday, May 07, 2014
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