And so I am turning 30 this year. The big 3-0. Just thinking of that sends sirens in my mind, howling over and over. Red alert. Emergency call. And that my friend is what's causing my anxiety. There's this impending fear that really haunts me. The fear of facing the fact that my current situation is not matching up to the ideal of what any girl turning 30 should have, which are a stable job, a hefty savings in the bank, and a serious relationship. And that really bombs me. Countless of articles online are also making the list longer. Though these serve as a helpful reminder, it also doubles as how much I have to "catch up".
Although being 30 has an obvious posing disadvantage as an adult woman, there also has some advantages that I would love to dwell on more for my sanity.
Have you ever experienced having this conversation with someone, and he says something so appalling to you, you became speechless and ended up saying a very lame reply or remained silent, sucking in air into your lungs because you were that shocked and defeated.
And thinking of it now, you beat yourself up for not coming up with a great argument that would shove his point aside and eat whatever he said?
Here are the times that I bombed out, and the instances that I wished happened.
At one point, I was seriously contemplating on putting up an organic soap business. One thing that attracted me into it is that it's healthier and and I'm always all for healthy stuff. So I did a bit of scouring within the city looking for a chemical supplier. I also did a bit of research on this whole organic soap industry. The way of making it from scratch looked really fun but I was taken slightly aback knowing that the lye, an important ingredient in soap making, is actually corrosive which means it could easily burn your skin. I didn't allow that to fuss my dreams into owning a health-related business, and just that, all I needed was to take extra precautionary measures and I'll be fine.
This dream had taken me into the next level of excitement when I chanced upon Osmia, which is an organic soap company spearheaded by a doctor. She started it since she wanted to change her life by enjoying and living it more as a business woman. As someone coming from that industry, I completely understood what she meant.
Having a lot of stuff on my plate right now, that dream project would have to be pushed aside.